To every beginning, there is an end, which brings about new beginnings, and we continue in that cycle—the cycle of life.
As with every birth, there has once been either a gruesome or peaceful end.
Shalom!
Death is a part of life. Part of the chain, thus an inevitable end. I dare say that I've had my fair share of death. I'd even say more than enough. Before I was born I had lost to death. I came to the world with no grandparents either paternal or maternal and a month and a few days before my second birthday, I lost my father to death and 5 years ago, I lost my mother too.
I've always been quite envious and at the same time empty. Envious of people that get to live up to their 40s or more and still have either one or both of their parents alive. Envious of my peers who still get to experience a mother's or father's love. Envious of those who knew their grandparents. And I always wonder why I've been dealt this card.
I'm in this twisted world with no family except ofcourse, my siblings. We probably all wish we could hug our mum or feel her warmth. We probably still want a father's guidance and protection. But for most of our youth, we've been denied that.
This really isn't a pity party for me. I've accepted my reality and learned to live with it. But to the people suffering out there due to one loss or the other, I want you to know that you'll get through it. It will seem like a very real but bad dream you want to wake up from. Unfortunately, it isn't. But you're strong and will survive this. Grieve and feel the loss, do not deny yourself the opportunity. You lost a love, so mourn your love. No one understands your pain as much as you do and no one can tell you how to grieve. But once you do, also remember you have those who still love you and live for them and yourself because that is what who you've lost will want. They'd want you to be happy and free.
I apologise for the intense air my friends, but I wouldn't be me if I wasn't real. I understand that we come online to get away from the harsh realities of life, but in all honesty, I think we should quit running. Life is life. The good, the bad, and everything in between. Let's live it.
Happy 2024!
XOXO,
Dee.